Home Bound But Heart Is Open

Home Bound But Heart Is Open

There is a saying about the beginning of things, like Spring can come roaring in like a lion and leaving out like a lamb. But this saying comes to mind when life and life events happen. This saying is the only thing that comes to mind when I think of the beginning of 2013.  With the personal issues, stressors and passings of loved ones and friends, I am praying that  2013 will go out like a lamb because it is starting with a roar.  

My husband recently lost a classmate, and this got me to thinking.  To see a beautiful, young woman lose her life at 42 years is heartbreaking.  I looked at what all she accomplished, all who she had touched and all that she had left behind.  But, I looked at her and was not only saddened by the loss but realizing that one cannot live isolated in a box.  I call this my Oprah moment, or my "Aha"  moment that life is about building and continuing friendships, reaching out to others, and just being there for others.  So, though I NEVER make New Years Resolutions, my husband and I took stock in our lives and realized that we have to do better, be better and be present in other lives. 

I have now faced the fact that I am essentially home bound.  I am not saying this for sympathy, I am just stating a fact.  My home bound is in the sense that I go some places, i.e. some stores, library with my kids, church, but all these activities take place during the day.  I want to reinforce my circle of people, of friends, but it comes with a catch.  My catch is that by the end of the day, by evening my MS exhaustion is at a peak.  Now, all I have to do is figure out how to expand my circle, strengthen my relationships when EVERYTHING is always scheduled for later on the evenings i.e. 7PM and later.  

So, though I know that I will not be able to make many, or any of these functions, the solution is to open my home.  I may be home bound, but my heart is open to increasing my circle.  I feel like I have been in a fog for so long and it is finally lifting.  I hope that my friends reading this will know that they will soon be getting phone calls.  Please pick up and please come by and see me.  I may be essentially home bound, but my heart is open.